Its my Party... ::tear::

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

:::...Yeah!! Dah abis!...:::

w0ah..i finally get to finish my Event Mgmt Project. My report and my powerpoint slides... For the past few days..I've been on-ing my STRESS m0de in my head. But for n0w, i'm able to l0wer down the mode a bit c0s there is still presentation to do. Dun understand?

Ok nvm..

Anyway..Me and Wan are back t0gether..I can't do or concentrate anythin with0ut him. All i could d0 was to cry my heart 0ut but no one was listening..

This m0rning, I skipped SW or th0se who dunn0..it's PE. Makin malas eh si AIN ni..

Last nite, I stayed up VERY late until ar0und 2 plus then i could sleep. Been tryin t0 upload the projects pic but the system...Aiyah!!

I could barely open up my eyes this mornin to get up.

I need MOTIVATION!!

Tryin not to slack any further. Exams are like 3 wks away!

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Sunday, September 25, 2005

:::...And So It Is...:::

I can't let him g0. All the mem0ries keep rewindin in my head. Now then i understand the meaning of:

" YOU DON'T MISS YOUR WATER TILL THE WELL RUNS DRY."

I do feel regret of my st0opid and hasty decisi0n. I was being sensitive. Thinkin dat he d0esn't care about me anym0re. Now, i'm just sittin here reminscin the past and my mistakes.

Will he give me another chance?

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Saturday, September 24, 2005

:::...Untitled...:::

Just reached h0me from ayuL's house. She had a small gatherin' f0r her b'day. Well, her actual b'day is t0moro. Only me, nads, sab and ama came.The rest had somethin else to do.

I met nads at Orchard first to get ayuL's gift. FAMOUS AMOS co0kies. We shared the cost and bought the Silver Gift Box. Then met the other 2 at Bedok MRT.

LET'S G0!

We ate then chilled at her h0use..watched tv and stuffs..Slack abis! Deep d0wn, i was really tryin to hide my em0tions. I didn't say anythin abt my break up. I didn't mean to hide anythin from my best friends..but i just didn't want to break d0wn and cry and spoils the whole m0od.

Upon reachin Sengkang, I decided to stop at earlier bus stop. I felt like I wanted to walk.

I walked aimlessly fr0m one traffic to an0ther. Until to the point I could not take it anymore, I just sat down at a bus stop. Just waitin for a feeder bus. At least I c0uld take the longer route. Didn't feel like g0ing home yet.

And to rub it in, there was this couple hugging each other lovingly in front of me. Just made me feel m0re worse.

I'm startin to doubt myself. Am I really sure dat I can let g0 so easily?

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:::...Torn...:::

I'm t0rn into million of pieces (0r more than dat)..just br0ke..

Did i make the right decision by leavin him? He makes me feel s0 worthless and useless in this r'ship. I'm s0o breathless now.

I do n0t regret by the move dat i made. It's true..it was MY choice. But y0u were the one who caused this pain in me.. It's ALWAYS been my faults. Each time i says sorry, it was s0o hard for u to accept it. But when i asked a simple apol0gy from u.. There is dis like a HUGE ego inside of u. Maybe if i could hear the word 'sorry' from u, things would be more simpler.

I kn0w i'm not PERFECT in your eyes. I always do & say things wr0ngly at the wrong time. I tried t0 change myself to make u happy. I gave everything to u. But what did i get? You used to show me dat u appreciates me but n0w..

Perhaps if u c0uld find a smarter girl to be with u.. I think u would be much happier.

I do not blame you. It's not ur fault. It's all my fault.

Maybe it's true that I'm not g0od enough for u.

Yest..I have lost m0st of my motivation. Dat's y I didn't attend assembly and was late for class.

And today.. My motivation is c0mpletely GONE.

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Wednesday, September 21, 2005

:::...It's Been Some Time...:::

...since Wan and me ate at Swensen's. Yest, we tried the new outlet which had just opened for biz at CP. I was full already cos b4 dat, i ate a HUGE slice of choc cake. Wan got it f0r doing a wedding sh0w.. How nice..

And yeah..i got the wrong bike..Nvm la..

Today, finally i bought a silver chain f0r my pendant fr0m Perlini's..It doesn't l0ok as nice as it was bef0re but @ least i can still wear it. I'm still feelin bad ab0ut it.

I'm bec0ming very worried about my Event Management REPORT c0s it's due next Tues. I'm FREAKING OUT already n0w.

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Sunday, September 18, 2005

:::...n0 idea...:::

Finally was given a chance for the Industrial Attachment Programme (IAP) since i could n0t have it last holiday break.

The company is located at Hill Street.

The building is SCCCi behind Penin or is it Capitol?

Can't remember la..

But the thin' is my lecturer have n0t called them. Really h0pe..this time is confirmed.

Almost f0rgot to print 0ut Varadero's 2004 pic f0r Wan.

My gawd! The bike is s0o nice..This is the first time they came 0ut with a t0tally black Varadero..

Haiz..h0pe Wan's dream will c0me true..

I have n0 more idea what to write..
Dat's It!!
FULL STOP!

* misshin' my baby *

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Wednesday, September 14, 2005

:::...When Will It Be...:::

Any0ne wanna blanja me t0 movies??haha..

I really wanna watch The Longest Yard.. but i'm br0ke!

s0o sad rite.. jus say dat u pity me..

If y0u symphatise wif me..

I'm jus a ph0ne call away!!

0k fine..Ain is crappin' again..

Dun b0ther abt me..

Bleah!!

Time t0 go to sc0ol..haiz..

Lemme catch my breath...

ok..

LET'S G0!

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Sunday, September 11, 2005

:::...Penat ke Ape...:::

I'm back fr0m camp!s0o tired lor..
1st day of camp..was relaxing..i was n0t involved with the interactive games..Stayed in the audit0rium to rehearse f0r the upcomin' Talent Quest.My pr0ject team was in-charge of the programme.Nadia,my co-sub comm practiced her script with her co-host,Farhana.I played songs and the rehearsal was ok.
Ate dinner..and it was the same catering services engaged by Interact Club. Q'zin!!The food was nice..but Interact Club's camp was mucch m0re nicer..hehe
We were supposed to have the Talent Quest ard 10.15 but due to a major prob happened to 0ne of the leaders, the prog was dragged all the way to 12am..aiyoh..everyone was losing their m0od..even my project manager, Ada.
In the end, not all gr0ups participated in the Quest.
The theme given was 'Movies'. The groups were given 15 choices of film titles to choose from. Spiderman, Fantastic 4, Kungfu Hustle, Charlie & The Choc Factory, Hot Chick and White Chicks joined the prog. Well..I was supp0sed to be 0ne of the judges but ended up being kn0wn as DJ Herbie for the 0ne hr of show..haha..cos i was wearing Herbie shirt which i took fr0m Wan and played the musics... I dashed int0 the r0om and was ever-ready to bum..but didn't get a pr0per sleep..Misshing him s0o much..Had a briefin' abt d next day's Amazing Race.
2nd day of camp..had breakfast..an unsatisfying one..proceed to Bishan Park Connector f0r our station. It was SUPER SCORCHING HOT lor..the sun was directly above our heads..it was blinding..
And yeah..Charlie & The Choc Factory won the 1st PRIZE!!Congrats t0 Faezah and her team c0s she was the direct0r of her gr0up.
Fortunately the debriefing was short..Cleaned the audi..Packed my bag..Went home. Dropped by to BK.Rushed home and bumped into Huda at CP.
Reached home...watched tv for a while..BUM!!
Slept for solid 17 HOURS except for some few mins t0 open my eyes t0 msg my baby..
Didn't get to watch Rhapsody on Suria..t0o exhausted t0 even think abt it..

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Wednesday, September 07, 2005

:::...Am I To Blame...:::

Why do i always have to be the cause of a couple's feud?And the couple are my dearly best friends..Haiz..i felt s0o guilty..I mean..it's like happened before..Way before when we were still in Sec Sco0l lagi..

It d0esn't occur to their relationship but mine t0o.

Everythin went greatly and my sto0pid phone have to change the way it behaves.I didn't receive Wan's msgs and it caused big time!He could not attend his Circuit Division.. I'm really s0orry..I made him angry..Aiyoh..

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Sunday, September 04, 2005

:::...fuy0oo...:::

At last i've finished doin the PR report..been busy with the draft and tomoro have to hand up the actual one. Quite disappointin cos could not make it to ms chew's gatherin on last Thurs. It's been a l0oong time since i last saw her. Had to complete the report all dat la..

I attended a 2 day- 1 nite Interact Camp at scool on Fri & Sat. It was a leisure camp..haha..we had buffet for dinner and it was nice.. Absolutely forgot about my decision to lose weight..Can never resist temptations..

Had fun..Played water bombs and Interaction Race..Very exhausted.Though my team was the last one but it was a fair play i guess..

Missh baby s0oo much..Glad at least we could msg..Though he's workin..

Anyway,for the sake of not been updating..just wanna thank huda & qie for the c0okie monster.. Redza (my irritating bro), for ur Adidas water bottle..Please kill me if i were to l0se this bottle again this time..Fyi, i've been losing my water bottles f0r 4 or 5 times..

Yeah, i guess dat's it..

Haiz..next week..i'm having my Bridge Leader's Camp lak..

~Bye~

Posted@|14:57|

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Thursday, September 01, 2005

:::...Dangerously In Love...:::

I love you

Baby I love you

You are my life

My happiest moments weren't complete

If you weren't by my side

You're my relation

In connection to the sun

With you next to me

There's no darkness I can't overcome

You are my raindrop

I am the sea

With you and God,

who's my sunlight

I bloom and grow so beautifully

Baby, I'm so proud

So proud to be your girl

You make the confusion

Go all away

From this cold and messed up world

I am in love with you

You set me free

I can't do this thing

Called life without you here with me

Cause I'm Dangerously In Love with you

I'll never leave

Just keep lovin' me

The way I love you loving me

And I know you love me

Love me for who I am

Cause years before I became who I am

Baby you were my man

I know it ain't easy

Easy loving me

I appreciate the love and dedication

From you to me

Later on in my destiny

I see myself having your child

I see myself being your wife

And I see my whole future in your eyes

Thought of all my love for you

sometimes make me wanna cry

Realize all my blessings

I'm grateful

To have you by my side

Every time I see your face

My heart smiles

Every time it feels so good

It hurts sometimes

Created in this world

To love and to hold

To feel

To breathe

To love you

Dangerously in love

Can't do this thing

I love you , I love you,

I love youI'll never leave

Just keep on loving me

I'm in love with you

I can not do

I cannot do anything without you in my life

Holding me, kissing me, loving me

Dangerously

I love you

Dangerously in love

Posted@|15:50|

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